So let's see. I have not been gaming much. After I starter therapy the gaming joy just vanished.
But last week, the itch to play came back.
After I decided I was not fit to lead a guild - Giggles Ink - I was running around on alliance guildless, just feeling miserable about my fail to keep Giggles Ink a float.
Well truth be told, the guild went very smoothly, but I decided to back down because it got to much for me, the expansion was not fun for me at the time either.
I think the game got to be too stressful for me. I thought more about pleasing everyone else then trying to have fun myself. I started to stress about events, people not talking in chat, that I was not entertaining people enough. I didn't put up enough events, and if I did, there was hardly anyone showing up and I felt like a failure. Then we started to raid and I couldn't get enough raid members and the stress got to me.
If I had stuck with it and stopped worrying so much I am sure the guild would have been alive and kicking still. People were happy there, that wasn't the issue, the issue was that I wasn't happy. So I left, I left the rains to a few people and I quit the game.
Now that I have been back for a while the guild is dead. A few people remain, who just like the silence I am sure.
So yes for the last 1-2 months of me just doing garrisons and nothing else, I have been guildless, -thinking I don't deserve to get into another guild. Because I had my own, and I failed a lot of people, so I punished my self by running around alone.
Well.... I have decided I have punished myself enough. This is just stupid. So I applied for a new guild. A casual guild, like Giggles Ink. A small group of people just trying to have fun in their own pace. With a lot of the same thoughts about guilds as I had with Giggles Ink.
I joined Strangest Tribe.Those who made this guild had actually looked at my guild before making their own, so the guilds are pretty similar. So now I am there, and happy about my decision. They have small dungeon groups 2 days a week, where they have a character they level in dungeons.
They have a Sunday event where they have lottery or playing darts (suicide dart I might add) or naked level 1 races and what not.
They have a day where they do 5man WoD runs, to help less experienced players to learn their class and dungeons. And they have a day with old raids. And at one point they might try some raids that are current.
It's all about fun and community, there is no i-level stress, we must go clear the latest content to have fun here. And that is okay. That is good!
So I hope I can settle here, be the tank I have always wanted to be, but always been to scared of being. I shall not give a single F*** about random pugs telling me I suck, I shall not give a single F*** about whiners being whiners and I shall play for me and have the fun I can have as a bad ass tanking machine that I can be. Yes I can be an awesome tank, and that is my plan. Be aware whiners, be aware badmouthed trolls, I have decided to not give you a single thought anymore. And just have fun with new friends. As a rolling belf, throwing kegs.