This post turned out way differently then I actually thought it would, I came into topics and thoughts I did not intend on writing. I guess I had some stuff on my mind that I really wasn't that aware of and some issues that I have thought of but always really just brushed away. I want a main MMO, that I have said before, and I want to become a writer, not just a flimsy screenshotter.
I am currently enjoying World of Warcraft again, leveling at my own pace and doing my own thing. But it is an MMO, your not suppose to run around alone all the time are you ? Seems a bit silly, but still that is what I am enjoying right now, especially in World Of Warcraft.
Why do I always return to WoW ?
This is the question isn't it. I got so bored before Christmas of the whole expansion (WOD), it felt like something was missing. That there was not enough content to do. I felt I went through the expansion way to fast. While many would say, you just have to look for content, your not being hand held anymore!
Yet often people don't actually tell you about all these awesome things you can do, that you haven't already done in previous expansions.
If I am done with doing all the transmog runs and achievement runs. And I dislike pet battles, and the Garrison feels like a boring Facebook game,then what is there ?
The random BG's is horrible, it is filled with bots. The one daily, doing the super easy LFR which is now even more of a joke then ever? I used to love LFR. I don't have the motivation or will shall I say, to have set days where I raid in a guild, because many of those days, I actually don't want to play. And I don't want a game that only offers raid 2 times a week, I surely don't want to subscribe for that either.
So why am I here then ? Well some reasons are obvious. I know the game, if I need something, I know where to find it. If I am unsure about something, there is always tons of guides around that is easy to find.
I don't have to level through a long and tedious journey of boring fetch quests, because I have so many characters close to max level. I know how the game works.
The WoD leveling experience, is actually quite fun, and I am going through the Alliance part of it now, which I didn't do before Christmas.
The combat still feels very fluid to me, it's fun. I love how the healing works, I love the amount of spells I have, how the animation looks on my spells. I love that there are many races to chose from. Tons of transmogs to run with. I love the healing classes and the hunter class. And I have found it difficult to find another game that has that same feeling with the combat and classes.
I love the easy access to a lot of things, like dungeons and raids. I can play WoW for 30 minutes and done something that I feel is valuable for my character.
I actually love that the whole game is familiar, It is sort of a home.
But I wish there was another game I loved as much.
I really do wish I could move on and find a new home, but it never happens. I jump mmo's so much it's like a evil cycle of jumping. My close to second home is FFXIV ARR. There are many things I love about the game.
I love the dungeons, I love the WHM and WAR, but there is something lacking. I can't put my finger on it. Is it that I don't find the combat as fluid? Is it the GCD? Is it because I am not as familiar with that world? There are so many things about the game I don't know. Isn't that a part of the journey, that is suppose to make a game fun, not knowing everything, and finding out about the world? Many questions I know.
I love the avatars, I love the Lalafell's and Miqote's, the spell animations, but for some reason I have not gotten into the story at all, I have skipped most parts because I get impatient. That might be a reason why I can't relate to the game. I love everything Final Fantasy related, so why haven't I made this game my home?
Is it lack of nostalgia?
Maybe this is the reason, I have not made enough memories to get a nostalgia feeling, I haven't made enough bonds with people and done enough activities with others to make some emotional bond with the game, with my avatar and the world? Is it because most of the stuff I have done in FFXIV is been solo based ?
It's not because of the lack of trying, I have been in many FC's, and made friends.
I have a lot of friends in FFXIV, but the sad part is that they are spread over servers and time-zones. If I lived in the US, I know where I would be and that would be on Cactuar with Belghast and his friends. It seems like such a super place, where you can play casual and yet see the raids the game has to offer.
I know some reasons I have been so bummed out with FFXIV, and that is the latency issues I have. I love the healing in this game, but some encounters in this game relies on you moving away from said attacks, if you don't move in time, it can have devastating effects on the battle. So maybe a reason I can't find my new home here is because, I have a high risk of messing up, and that makes me think I can't be "good" at the game. I know I am a good healer, But if my latency is going to mess up battles for me, is there any point ?
There is a LFG and LFR tool in this game, just as in WoW. But the LFR tool is unfamiliar to me, so I have never used it. I really like these tools, it means I can be as casual as I want, yet being able to see the things the game has to offer. But I have never used it in FFXIV, in the fear of not being able to know the fights well enough, to ruin the groups by my lack of experience and unfortunate latency. The raidgroups in FFXIV are small, 8 man. And if I as a healer, don't do my job it will indeed be very obvious. That scares me, and that might be one of the reasons why I haven't made this game my new home.
Some things bothers me with FFXIV.
I am not sure exactly why these things bothers me but they do. In-game weddings and weird RP. These weddings have lots of people joining, people dress up, watching a couple get married and they make a huge deal out of it. And that is okay, for people to like it.
But I don't, and it just makes me.... very uncomfortable. I don't understand why, but it kind of just freaks me out.
I was invited to one of these once, and I was like HELLS TO THE NOES, I am not joining - I thought that to myself, I didn't actually tell them :P
The event ended with drama, when one person who promised to show up, never did and one of the people who got married started to rage. I was amazed that someone would get so mad at a person who did not show up. Lashing out in FC chat, whining about said person.
And all I thought about was, what if something has happened to that person in real life, what if he is hurt somewhere and you sit there, bitching and nagging about someone not showing up for a weird wedding in a game ?
Because of that event, I ended up leaving the FC, it just creeped me out, how role-play can affect people. And how people didn't speak up, or just agreed with the person.
But I got a bit off topic there.
I am not sure what my point is with this post. I just felt I needed to write something.
I want a main game!
One to stick with, a main MMO. But is that even possible anymore? Do you have a main MMO? That you really invest most of your MMO-time into? Or do you have to have more then one?
I want one game because I want to become better at blogging. I want to take my blogging to a better level, a new level, I want to have a blog where I can write something good instead of my random ramblings. Become a better writer, become better at English- writing correct sentences instead of my Norwegian - English setup. Be better at looking up facts and opinions. But since I just jump around I will never be able to actually write how I want to write. Maybe If I start writing about a game, I will be more attached to the game!
But can you write informative and good posts about a game without raiding and doing endgame?
|How to kill Odin !?|
I think I am frustrated with myself because I want a blog that can teach people something and me, where people can come for information. Not just my silly screenshots of lalafell laughing at a cactuar, or a half naked human paladin, dancing in a waterfall.
Me, myself and I.
There is a lot of me, myself and I here. Something that I have come to dislike. I want more YOU and US and THEM, not I and ME's. This blog is becoming slightly, to say the least, a narcissistic place. While blogging obviously is about the thoughts and opinions about the person who writes it, I still want to be able to include more of YOU here, and less ME. As many bloggers are so very good at doing.
I don't know. I think I could be better, I just need to figure out a way to make topics. I am good at studying, I can write "reports" why have I not been able to implement it into my blog ? Maybe it is because I haven't been given an assignment, and find it hard to give myself one ?
I have a hard time motivating myself, because of the life I am currently living. I want change, I need change, and a lot of changes are coming soon in my real life. I hope this can affect my blogging, but I also hope I can make some changes by myself before I start my treatment. It would make me so proud, and bring a lot of joy and excitement.
|I wish I had a magical pen!|